Looking forward to Monday

I have to share! Suhana comes back tomorrow from her trip!! So excited to have her back, I can't wait to squeeze her! And Jiana has started grabbing her toys now! She sits in her bouncy chair and grabs the little animals above her. She is so good with her hands! My smart little cookie!

Bye Bye Guilt!

My days are filled with Jiana's naps, feedings, playing with her, cleaning out old drawers in my house and having lunches with my co-workers, hubby, and family. Not bad, right? Well, I haven't had this "easy" life for a long time. Easy, in the sense that i'm not rushing around like a chicken with my head cut off! (and literally, thats how it is normally!) I am enjoying staying home with my girls, and it really has refreshed me. I was just talking to my girlfriend, Sarah, who moved to Colorado recently, about how this burden of guilt that I used to carry around has lifted from my shoulders. As all moms know, guilt is the emotion that comes most strongly after love. You love your children but you also feel guilty, ALWAYS. Whether you are a stay at home mom, you feel it, whether you work, you feel it.. the darn thing doesn't leave!

This emotion was my best friend for the first two years of Suhana's life. I worked full time up until I went on maternity leave for Jiana. I would try to spend every waking moment with Suhana, in the hopes that  that would make up for working and not being around. I would hardly see my friends, rarely have play dates with other kids, because that would take away "my time" with Suhana. I would rush home from work, so I could play with her, feed her, give her a bath and then put her to sleep, trying to squeeze every ounce of time with her before another crazy day started. To sum it up, I was exhausted a lot! Avikar can attest to that.

Needless to say, these last four months at home have been so NICE! I see my kids and do fun things with them. I can go to a movie with Avikar and NOT feel guilty. It's been a relief. So much so, that I am looking forward to going back to work in April and having a balance. I will have a part time schedule (perfect!!!!!!!!!!!!) which will allow me to spend time with the girls and not be so neurotic about it, that I can have date night with Avikar, what a novel idea. And the thing I miss most is being around other adults and using my brain. I have an amazing group of colleagues who make it fun and worth the extra stress of our jobs.

So, in conclusion, the guilt will never leave completely, which is good, but has greatly diminished and things are back in perspective.

Suhana, the Matchmaker

Suhana is in South Africa with her grandparents on a whirlwind 3 week trip. She will be there until the coming Monday and has been having such an amazing time that it's hard to catch her to talk on the phone or even Skype. She is one popular kid there. She is being spoiled by all her grandma's, Oshana Mama, Shaleen Mama and JoJo Mama and her Chachu's (Avikars' cousins) and of course great grandparents, Nani Ma, Nanu and Aji Ma. What more can a girl ask for?

I am sure there will be more stories that I write about her experiences there but this one is for the books, so I'm sharing even before I have a photo to include. The whole family was in Durban at the Sibaya Resort for the weekend. Tashlin (Avikar's cousin) was there as well and he wanted to propose to his girlfriend Leanne. But he wanted it to be very special...and he wanted Suhana to be part of it too. So overlooking the ocean, on the steps of the resort, with Suhana on his knee (while he is on bended knee) he asked Leanne to marry him! Of course she said "Yes!" Since, the family is so far away and its a close knit family, it was very special for Suhana to share this moment with them. Clearly, she will be lots of good luck for them, what 2 year old isn't?  So congratulations Tashlin and Leanne! We are so happy for you!

On another note, this time that Suhana has been away, Avikar and I have been able to spend time with Jiana. What a novel idea? Well, for those who have 2 kids know that the older one still gets all the attention because they are vocal. So, these last few weeks I have been able to love on Jiana and just hang out. She is so incredibly special, I can start crying thinking about it. Her entrance into the world was a little harried but she is a strong and happy baby. She smiles A LOT (she smiles with her beautiful hazel eyes) and even cracks up at this age. I feel that she already has a sense of the world. An old soul... She knows when I leave the room and will make grunting noises to get me back, she will smile at just about anything. The best part, is that I can make her laugh and when she does her whole face lights up. As a mom I can't ask for anything more... I love her!!!!!!

Playing Catch Up

So many of my friends write wonderful blogs and even though I see some of them regularly, and others rarely, I love to read them. I got to thinking that as a mother of 2 kids, my memory seems to be failing me more than I'd like to admit. I'm sure other moms can relate to this phenomenon! And more importantly, I want to be able to answer my kids when they ask me "What was I like when I was little?", with something other than "You were a great kid!" Boring!


So, for them and myself, I am starting this blog about life with my daughters, Suhana (2.5 years old), Jiana (3 months old) and my husband of 5 years, Avikar. Also, I figured its a good way for family which is far and near to keep in touch. (Hailing from India to South Africa to the USA)


The name of the post came from the idea that all the seasons that come and go are perfect in their own way. I wouldn't change a thing in my life, and I know that everything that is meant for us as a family is going to be perfect. I hope you enjoy this journey with me and would love to hear from you.

Here are a few recent pics of my girls...

                                                Suhana.. getting ready for an outing.

                                                        Jiana, always smiling.

                                                               Ahhh..joy!

                                            Got myself a penguin from Seaworld!

                                            Seriously, where does the time go?

                                                     With Dad at Seaworld. :)